Alright Mr. K, I'm aware I've missed like.. a bunch of journals, and I don't even think I could begin to catch up. However, I feel if I write something rather long reflecting upon some things it'll at least count for some partial credit. I’ll start with some of the things I do remember in class, considering I guess I take some crappy notes. I remember Solomon, King of Israel, biggest idiot ever. As King all Solomon had to do was basically not get greedy. Basic rules that I remember – don’t be rich, don’t have a lot of horses, and don’t have many wives. What does he do? He turns around and is one of the biggest pimps in history (haha) in sleeping with so many women (maybe even more than Charlie Sheen!); he becomes super greedy with gold and riches and needs to have this huge like castle thing to himself, and has like an entire army of horses. Wow. For a “wise” guy he’s an idiot.
I also remember talking about David, Solomon’s dad I believe. David eventually became king, and had a relationship with this guy Jonathon that Christians perceive as purely plutonic, but the way it’s discussed in the Bible I’d like to disagree. The entire thing is about how much they love each other! When they said not as a woman, or there was a verse saying that their love wasn’t like the love for a woman, you could easily perceive that as saying that they were gay and didn’t feel for women in such a way as they did towards each other. BAM.
We also learned about sheep and how we are kind of like sheep to God (the shepherd!). When we stray, God doesn’t just forget us. While we may wonder off like total idiots and manage to get totally lost throughout life, he will constantly go looking for us and pull us back in to fix us.
Sometimes, we get so lost where we believe that God is completely gone from our lives and we start doing these harmful things to ourselves to try and fill the void. But it’s not enough, it’ll never be enough. God is the only thing that can fill that loneliness, no matter where you look. Whether you try to fill the hole with relationships, drugs, violence, alcohol, none of them will help you.
I don’t know if you listen to Brand New (I’m going to enclose the lyrics and links to the songs themselves below), they have a few songs that relate to God and Jesus, one of which is called Jesus Christ and expresses how lonely someone feels and is trying to get answers from God and the other is called Limousine. Limousine talks about a 7 year old girl that died in a limo in 2005. My favorite lyrics from the song are,
“And in the choir, I saw a sad messiah
He was bored and tired of my laments
Said, 'I'd die for you one time, but never again'"
They are in reference to Jesus Christ dying for our sins, but that he won’t now. As though we’ve lost ourselves again and he won’t save us this time. These two songs express serious pain in a thought that we’ve lost God. I’ll enclose the lyrics and links here:
LIMOUSINE
Kay, here's your ride.
Get your petals out and lay them in the aisle
Pretend your garden grows and that it's your day to wed.
We found your man he's drinking up, he's all-American.
And he'll drive.
He's voluntarily graced to end your life,
He'll tidy up,
It's sad to hope leave your shell to us,
You explode,
You firefly, a tiny boat with all,
Further on the world tilts back and poison pours.
And so, your satellite.
You're a tidal wave, you're a big surprise.
And I, one more night to be your mother.
This signal's interrupts,
Maybe it's frequency's not strong enough.
It remade my hands and smile,
We will miss you but in time you'll get set up,
We will rise!
You're so free, yeah you were right about me,
Can I get myself back from underneath this guilt that will crush me,
And in the choir i saw a sad messiah,
He was bored and tired of my laments,
'said I died for you one time but never again.
(never again)
Well I love you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
One'll love you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
Two'll love you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
Three'll love you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
Four'll love you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
Five'll will love you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply,
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
Six'll I love you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
Seven loves you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
(never again)
I said loved you so much, but do me a favor baby don't reply.
Because I can dish it out, but I cant take it.
JESUS CHRIST
esus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone I could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle
Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through
And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone
Well Jesus Christ, I'm alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
Cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.
Well Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?
Do I divide and fall apart?
Cause my pride is too sly to hold back all my dark
And the ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands
I know you'll come in the night like a thief
But I've had some time alone to hold my lies inside me
I know you think that I'm someone you can trust
But I'm scared I'll get scared and I swear I'll try to nail you back up
So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I'll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try
I know you'll come for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
Tongue tied to a hating factory
But we all got wood and nails
Your tortured (and hanging) factory
Yeah, we all got wood and nails
Your tortured (and hanging) factory
Yeah, we all got wood and nails
And we sleep inside of this machine
Without God, we’re nothing. I’ve learned that fairly recently. My emptiness isn’t going to be filled with a person or by some bad decisions, but it’ll be filled by God. See I’m thinking that our world today is going literally to hell. There are people in 6th grade now that are trying weed, 6th freakin grade. How ridiculous is that? Religion is becoming less and less important to people, becoming second even to sports. The way our world is going, we won’t be something God will be proud of and he may even turn his back on us. There are people in this world that honestly believe there is no God, but do you think they’re honestly happy? I believe that there is a hole in their hearts. I was just like them. I think that maybe if we all stopped and thought for even just a few moments about HOW some of the things in our lives happen, we’d realize that these things don’t just happen, and we are in no way in charge of what happens. I mean to an extent God will give us chances and we have to take them, but it’s up to Him to give them.
